These attacks never stop and the pain never ends. It is because of who I am and who I will be. A child of God and a child of my father. But now I think and remember..if I am feeling these attacks against me then I must have done something right. So I’m going toe to toe with the enemy and he sure doesn’t like it cause he is throwing everything he’s got.
I want my heart to be stronger to take a beating
I want my eyes to be opened to see your face
I want my ears to be open to hear your word
I want to hear your direction for my life God
I want to know I am man enough to make it through this
I want to know I have what it takes
I want to know that in the end
That I had the guts to move
In the direction you pointed me in
Change me, strengthen me, guide me, and protect me
I want to be who I am meant to be
Today I listened to John Mark McMillan’s Song “How He Loves” and it touched me again. God keeps reminding that once we have asked why and have recieved our answer that we need to then change our way of thinking from “why” to “HOW”. Instead of asking why is this happening God or why do I feel this, we should be asking God HOW can I do this, How can I reach this. I have learned this and I am still working on it everyday. It truely is amazing to see God work in your own life. God teach me How to do this, teach me HOW to make it through!
I want a heart like Paul
He keeps showing me what he he is doing…God is Good
I need something but i don’t know what
There is something that is missing that i need
Father give me what I need
I pray you would know the truth
I pray that you would know how I feel
I pray that you would know what I feel
I pray that you would know what I want
And I pray that you know that it’s has never changed
Since that first time My heart leaped
And anything else like that
I just read one of my post and i used the word doubt. Doubt it not of God and everything else I listed above and some more is NOT of God. I got to stand on His truth and remembered i am loved. I got to protect my mind from satan so he does NOT fill my mind with lies and false statements. God knows the truth and He knows what he is doing. In God We TRUST.
You never know what you got til it’s gone..
I see those and miss them so much
I see what use to be and hope that it is to be
I miss how it was
I miss every moment of it
But now I don’t know what to think
Except that I doubt it will ever happen
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