Wanting

How is it that I want what I need

But at the same time I want what i want

Even though there is nothing I can do right now to get what I want

And even though what I want does does feel the same way

so yea

I’m sitting here and thinking why I’m so worried about a situation in my life that i have no control over….i mean its in God’s hands and I don’t know why i worried this thought when they only want me as nothing more.  I shouldn’t be thinking about this…..so why am I?