hope

how do you know when to hang on to hope?

how do you know when to keep that little bit

or to destroy it all?

how do you know its worth holding on for a little longer,

and not to let it all go?

self

i strive to be better

to be my true self

not my false self

even though it fights to live

i want to be whats really true

and want to be whats really meant

i don’t like the person who i became

when i was fighting on my own

i don’t like that  i became someone who i hate

i don’t like it at all

i like being who i was created to be

i like being the best that i can be

so i fight to gain me

i fight the lie of me

and stretch out to be the true me

Untitled Song

I see the storm coming over me

I feel the rain drops give their beating

I hear the sound of the thunder rumbling

I fight the weight that it’s pouring out on me

I left my head so that I can see your face

And I look up to the sky for your grace

I hear the call that’s for me

And I look to see my destiny

I hear your voice calling out for me

So now I stand, so now I fight

And now I have survived

To be your light, to be you light

Come, won’t you fall on me

Bring Peace, to calm my troubled sea

Bring truth, so I may stand in you

Bring Love, so I may cherish you

Opportunities

I sit here and look,

I look at my life right now at this moment.

I see what I have have,

And see what I could have.

I see opportunities.

I see a friendship,

I see a better education,

I see a career,

I see a better man,

I see giftings and talents,

I see change,

And I see that the doors are being opened.

This is the time to Man Up!

This is the time where I have to do my part,

I have to step up to the challenge

God has placed the opportunities in front of me

Now I have to take advantage of all thats in front of me

I cannot be lazy anymore, I can’t

Man Up

This is the year for change in me,

This is the time when i need to man up

some things i feel like i should give up on…but i don’t

What’s wrong with New Years

What gets me about new years is pretty much everything.  First most people just go out and get wasted and thats how they “remember” the new year.  Second is that for days before the new year mdeia has us looking back at the past.  And some of that is good and all but looking at the past doesn’t do anything the next coming up year.  There is a reason why it is called NEW year and not old year .  and last that stupid ball dropping.  I don’t get that.  we watch a ball drop for ten seconds and then watch paper get shot out of cannons and scream and shout.  Man if i was incharge of that i would make it 100 times better.  I mean have something that explodes or right on one have the pimpest song with the most bass and chest rattling sound start playing a song.  any way thats my thought about new years.

Teleporting

I was reading and studying the Book of Acts today.  I was in chapter 8 and reading the part about when Philip just baptized a high official and all of a sudden God took him and sent him somewhere else.  and I don’t mean told him to walk to somewhere else but Philip’s body was grabbed by the Spirit and transferred somewhere else.  And I thought everything that was done in Acts we as believers should be doing.  So wouldn’t that be so awesome if one day God just teleported you somewhere so you could keep spreading the Word and doing great things through the Holy Spirit.  Holy Cow I just can’t wrap my mind around that idea, but it would be Amazing if it happened!

time

give it time and it will heal

give it space and it will be closer then before

give it freedom and it will become a prisoner again

Story of a Boy – Between the Trees

I was in love or at least i thought i was i had that funny feeling in the pit of my stomach when my fingers started tingling everytime we kissed but the problem wasnt kissing it was that it happened much too often neither of us whoaaa nooo the best was made for part and this broke my heart but the pain had to heal and i had to get back up if she was for real i know shes worth the fuss this is the story of a boy who fell in love this is the story of a boy who grows up this is the story of a boy who fell in love the man he becomes which led me to a life of love and never in-loveable i would leave affection was the only connection i could make with those i used but i gotta take this heart and make it change for the better but letting go of her im moving on darling look out below cuz there’s a lot to let go but pain had to heal and i had to get back up cause if she was for real i know shes worth the fuss this is the story of a boy who fell in love this is the story of a boy who grows up this is the story of a boy who fell in love this is the story of a boy who grows up  she tells me that im her only one and loves the man that i’ve become despite the boy i was but all it wants this tip toward love? it’s bigger than the both of us and greater than lifes greatest rush this is the story of a boy who fell in love this is the story of a boy who grows up this is the story of a boy who fell in love and the man he becomes whooooooooo this is the story of a boy who fell in love this is the story of the man he becomes