The Last Days

These are the last days of my teenage years

Everything I have learned to become a man

Not wasting time and Enjoying my life

Saving what i need and wasting what I don’t

Learning not to steal and getting away free

Learning how to screw up and yet never fail

Learning who I am and still not know what is to come

Everything in those years I have done

Some good, some bad, some great and some unsaid

My teen days coming to an end

And my adulthood waiting for its chance to stand

She is

When i was little she woke me up for school

When i was in need she was the one always near

When i was hurt she was my shoulder to cry on

When i was scared she was the one who held me close

When i was sad she was the one that made me happy

When i messed up she showed me my mistake

When i was at a low, she blessed me

When i didn’t feel loved she loved me

When i wanted to give up she pushed me farther

Who is she you ask?….

Who is is this great one i speak of?…

She is my caretaker

She is my friend

She is the one that brought me here

She is my mother!

 

Matthew Paul Forstner…

That is the name given to me,

But yet I have not become the man it is to be

I want that name to be represented by a man

And written down in more than just sand

I want that name to represent my father

I want it to represent what is to come

I want it to represent more than what I am now

 

Better….

Why can’t I be a better son

Why do I always let down my Fathers

Why can’t I give Paul and Veena the son they deserve

Why

I’m In Love….

And I’m falling fast into your arms

I never want to leave you

I never want you to leave

You make me new everyday

And show your love in any way

No matter what,

You have me coming back for more

And when I fall flat on my face

You are there with your hand out saying,

“Lets go back into War!”

What My Friends Think About Me…

Roses are red

Violets are blue

No one else is..

As weird as you

I have some of the best friends in the world:)…..Thanks

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Everyone sees me waiting

And they all know the truth….

I can’t hide it, I can’t deny it

So I’ll just tell myself the truth

Their Words…

Dance around my head

Making me want it even more

All of me wants those words to be true

But I need to focus

I need to not focus on that

I need to reframe the picture

I need the wide view

Lead Me

Lead me

Show me where to go

Let me follow you

And take me to that place

Lift me to that higher level

Show me the land of increase

Fulfill my goals

Fulfill my dreams

Fulfill my desires

Fulfill my call

Don’t stop until you are finished

Don’t stop until I’m there and far above

Don’t stop Father

Don’t stop changing me!

From 2/12/08

Today was a better day

Ifeel better than yesterday

because every down has its up

And I have to remember

That once I go down

The only thing I have to do

The only thing I can do

The only thing I will do…

Is go up